in need...

over a year since leaving therapy, i now need it more than ever before...

Throw in the towel

i feel lost and anguished like a teenager that questions even the existence... my world has been shaken, torn and broken yet again... the past that i thought was dead, was simply buried and has returned to once again cause damage, kill life and hurt those i care for... i feel helpless and defeated more than ever before...

esta coisa de recomeçar, reconstruir, partir do zero torna-se cansativa quando repetida vezes de mais. deixa marcas. vai recalcando e espremendo uma acidez que corrói por dentro.

deixem-me ser amarga e cínica e tudo o mais que me vou tornando... tenho razões, acreditem que tenho razões que justifiquem isso e mais.